Well, it is official. We found out on Tuesday that we are having another girl! I am excited and scared both. This is supposed to be our last one so everyone was rooting for a boy. I was a little sad because I wanted one of each in a way but, I am happy too because I wanted Claire bear to have a sister! I think I am just going through a rough time because it is supposed to be our last. I don't know if I am ready for that yet. My mom would kill me if she knew I said that because I was so sick with these two. My husband does not want any more for various reasons. It's not the kids he doesn't want, it is me being pregnant and sick. I know that I really don't need any more, some days I wonder how on earth I am going to raise these two! But, something inside of me just isn't ready to let go yet. I don't know, I am really struggling and I am praying.
Crystal (my sis) had her baby yesterday. A little boy, finally! Jason Douglas Glen Warford. Hope I spelled it right. He was a big boy, 9lbs.3oz. and 21 in. I sincerely hope I don't ever have one that big! Congratulations to Paul and Crystal!
My struggles lately are varied. I feel like I am being attacked from all sides! I have been really struggling to stay in the word on a daily basis. Last night, I didn't feel like cooking or cleaning or anything. So, we had oatmeal for supper. I feel like a terrible mother and wife for even admitting that! It is just getting so hard to move and breathe and EVERYTHING gives me heartburn!
So, yesterday was not a succesful day for me and I only have a little while before my new baby girl gets here! So many things to do and buy and not enough time or money! It is becoming a reality just how much this one is going to change our lives. It is scary but I am excited too! She is going to move us out of our comfort zone which if you know us, is a good thing! We are very routine oriented people! But, I think it is good to get shook up once in awhile.
I am also having a bit of a problem with people being not extremely happy for us that this is a girl. I feel like she deserves every bit as much attention as Claire got! And that was a lot! It's just the attitude I am feeling coming from some people. It is very hard. Here's the thing, we didn't choose what she is, but we are happy anyway. God decided what she was to be before she was even created! Who am we to doubt his plan?
So, I have been in a bit of a whiny, pregnacy hormonal mood lately........
On another note, I have had a few thoughts about Romans. If something isn't directly spoken for or against in the bible, why do we try to make laws to forbid it? That is not our job. God took care of that A LONG TIME AGO! Anyway, that is a different post. I will try to get my thoughts together and post on that later.
Love to everyone who reads this. Please pray for me. Also, I am requesting prayers for my sister in law and her family. I will not post the reason or her name. But, she does really need prayers.