I realize after reading over what I said and thinking about it for a few days that it came out in an angry way and that is not what I meant at all. Maybe I should clarify a few things:
I, ME, MYSELF am also to blame. I have done my share of not visiting and not calling and not inviting others to do things with me and my family. I have tried a few times and it got to hard and it seemed like people were not as interested as I was so I stopped. This was my mistake. I should have kept trying and I should have went to more things that were planned.
I am not angry so much as I am depressed and sad. I feel very alone and things you feel are not always so easy to say. So, forgive me for not telling you sooner. That was my responsibility too. I should ask for prayers when I need them. Not just expect everyone to know what's going on in my head.
So, please forgive me if I've upset you . I felt like I needed to get it off of me before it smothered me and I'm sure at times that you have felt the same. I will be praying that this helps us draw closer together and we see things in a clearer way from now on.
Thank you to Crystal and Christine for your sweet & thoughtful comments. It made me feel so much better to know that I wasn't just talking to empty space, that someone was listening. You both had wonderful suggestions. Thanks so much.
Love and Prayers to all,