Why is this so hard for me? This is the most difficult thing ever for me and I believe it is the root of most if not all of my problems. I struggle with this so much! I want to pray and seek His will but to often I don't for various reasons, er, excuses. I believe that too often, we don't stop to hear the voice of the Lord. We don't ask his advice, we don't hear his voice. I spend a lot of my time sorrowful because I just can't seem to get in that place spiritually that I want to be. And it's all because I won't let Him do His work, I won't let him take the lead. All I have to do is ask, so why is that so hard?
Tomorrow I am praying before I go pay bills and do my weekly shopping. I am praying before I clean my house that so desperately needs it. I need the Lord's help because I am running on empty. I can tell when I have not been in the word like I should and not praying and seeking his will. I get sick, I get depressed, I get terrible headaches and panic attacks. I have had all of those this past week and I have tried to make it better by reading uplifting blogs, memorizing scripture, reading uplifting books by Christian authors, all of it has helped somewhat but it is not enough. I need the word. I need to pray on my knees and let it all out. I need time alone with my God. Please pray for me tomorrow as I begin this process. I know that a lot of cleansing is about to take place. I know that a lot of peace will follow. After all, I will be sitting at the feet of my Savior.
Love and Prayers,